Zero Goes...

I am really, really sorry people.
I keep making promises that I'll update soon or that I'm working on stuff. Most of the time those projects have been left sitting in the dust, unfinished. I really wanted to draw some crazy awesome shit for you guys, and myself, this summer, but I lost all inspiration/motivation to do anything really. I didn't feel comfortable doing anything. And when I did draw, I could, to an extent, but then I would be almost ripping my hair out because nothing looked right. Absolutely nothing. Anatomy always looked off and stiff, proportions were just fucked up all the time, perspective was one tough sonofabitch.
The only way I can describe it as is "art depression" or something. I have no real will to draw and/or work on other projects, like the HUGE personal project between me and ~Vhendira to make and develop the universe we had started with our characters. I haven't budged much from where I left off at. While she's developed everything from customs to the society to the art to the language to the EVERYTHING of her people/species.

I feel unaccomplished. Like I won't make it anywhere with my art or something. And not just my visual art, my stories, my ideas, my very being even. I turned 18 not to long ago, and I am now being slapped in the face with the reality that I am now considered an adult. It's pretty damn harsh and I feel that I'm just not ready face the challenges that lay ahead of me. Finishing highschool, going to college, which will more than likely also mean that I will move out and live on my own. I have a job currently, and that's really bringing to light that when I live on my own, it'll be hard. Because I have to pay bills, insurance (more than likely), school, food, supplies, clothing, everything myself, with a paycheck of probably about $700 a month at most. It's depressing.

I'll stop there before I go into more self-discrimination and ranting of my life situation.

To be honest, I get the impression only a small fraction of my watchers even have faith me in. Since only that fraction ever comment or even silently favourite things I do post.
But to be honest every little favourite, every comment, I cherish. They all brighten my day.

To be even more brutally honest, I expect only five or so people will even bother to look at this. x3

tl;dr My life sucks right now, and my art isn't churning out like I had wanted it to. Boo hoo.

Your friendly neighborhood furry green dragon,
Zeron Xantouke